The thirst I once had to publish my thoughts has severely diminished in the past month. I'm uncertain of why this would happen. Usually I'm full of opinions and concerns, just busting to present them to an unweary audience.
Right. so. life.
I have a friend. Yeah, we can call her a friend. Who I share quite a bit with. I'm not sure why I trust this individual so much. Anyways, this thing went down and I was quite upset... I voiced my concerns with my friend that I trust too much and she told me...wait for it...wait for it. She told me that I say yes too much and perhaps that they are using me. Now, I agree with her. She's spot on... don't get me wrong I think she's hit the nail on the head. but. I feel forced to say yes. I use to point out frequently that I felt like I was paying them back, or doing my dues - some shit like that. Guess what? I actually don't feel tied down by that anymore. I've done my fair share of 'giving back'. Now it's time I started paying the real stuff forward to people that will benefit from my time and energy. I'm starting with not committing to community choir (Tuesday night choir) this year, and instead pursuing the opportunity for me to conduct my own youth choir.
So here's the the journey of my self indulgence.
Cheers folks.
